It was some restaurant, guess the one I visited a few days before and
I met my immediate juniors of engineering college. Don't ask me how we
happen to bump in each other, it quite seems like all planned. And
they have such pity on their face for me, that I left UltraTech and
joined a local B-School. What might have went wrong with him, Why not
any other better B-School of Pune or Mumbai with a better package and
standard.
It was for a few seconds I was with them.
It was only when the phone rang and I woke up that I realized it was
but a dream, a bad dream.
My previous job which I barely ever felt that I did, only I know how
dispassionate I was there. Pay-rolls, sitting in office, other
functions, the natural aptitude what they call it, dealing with people
damn it not Me, not my type. Ever since I left it and started walking
on the other side, chose to walk the path of great resistance life
hasn't been easy for me. So many questions, this constant turbulence
which is happening inside all the time, reasoning explaining why this,
why not that.
Yesterday I met a friend of me, this time not in dream but in real and
he still was suggesting to think one more, HELLO I have joined and you
know everything, different interviews I gave for a teaching job, about
my offer letter, the day of joining and we have been talking about my
job responsibility and how I am feeling awesome about this job for
last 41 minutes to be precise.
Another friend I met after years also kind of asked me, " Don't u
think a little more experience in Industry would have been good? "
OK. Yeah she also said You doing the right thing, your previous job
wasn't made for you and many other things in my support and actually
loved my decision.
But when I sleep I don't remember all those supporting words from
people who loved my decision and praise my so called doing different
things always from the world, REAL WORLD!
Fine. I am in office again, ready to start day's work. Yet I must
confess everyday, every moment I keep reminding myself of the greatest
warriors - Patience and Time, to feel good and alive and happy. No, I
am not trying to convince myself. And right I don't confess, I am
telling you.
My Dad, as my Mother said felt sad and was worried about my decision
to do such a low paid job. I told him - Papa I accepted it, fine won't
earn good money.
I know for myself and 'accepted' can't have a car, even a new bike for
some more time & won't be able to spend lavishly when I will meet
friends, show-off. Have a new mobile or give my family a good amount after
making my own life comfortable. Asked them for his support a little
more.
I am scared but confident. I am happy, no doubt. And Yes I am where I
always wanted to be, the place what I know I belong to. Leave apart
whether or not I am True/RIGHT!
Not gonna spoil what I have now by desiring what I have not;
remembering that what I now have was once among the things I only
hoped for. Though not completely the way it should be.
He he, I read it somewhere “If you want to feel rich, just count the
things you have that money can't buy” !!!
Ok!
I met my immediate juniors of engineering college. Don't ask me how we
happen to bump in each other, it quite seems like all planned. And
they have such pity on their face for me, that I left UltraTech and
joined a local B-School. What might have went wrong with him, Why not
any other better B-School of Pune or Mumbai with a better package and
standard.
It was for a few seconds I was with them.
It was only when the phone rang and I woke up that I realized it was
but a dream, a bad dream.
My previous job which I barely ever felt that I did, only I know how
dispassionate I was there. Pay-rolls, sitting in office, other
functions, the natural aptitude what they call it, dealing with people
damn it not Me, not my type. Ever since I left it and started walking
on the other side, chose to walk the path of great resistance life
hasn't been easy for me. So many questions, this constant turbulence
which is happening inside all the time, reasoning explaining why this,
why not that.
Yesterday I met a friend of me, this time not in dream but in real and
he still was suggesting to think one more, HELLO I have joined and you
know everything, different interviews I gave for a teaching job, about
my offer letter, the day of joining and we have been talking about my
job responsibility and how I am feeling awesome about this job for
last 41 minutes to be precise.
Another friend I met after years also kind of asked me, " Don't u
think a little more experience in Industry would have been good? "
OK. Yeah she also said You doing the right thing, your previous job
wasn't made for you and many other things in my support and actually
loved my decision.
But when I sleep I don't remember all those supporting words from
people who loved my decision and praise my so called doing different
things always from the world, REAL WORLD!
Fine. I am in office again, ready to start day's work. Yet I must
confess everyday, every moment I keep reminding myself of the greatest
warriors - Patience and Time, to feel good and alive and happy. No, I
am not trying to convince myself. And right I don't confess, I am
telling you.
My Dad, as my Mother said felt sad and was worried about my decision
to do such a low paid job. I told him - Papa I accepted it, fine won't
earn good money.
I know for myself and 'accepted' can't have a car, even a new bike for
some more time & won't be able to spend lavishly when I will meet
friends, show-off. Have a new mobile or give my family a good amount after
making my own life comfortable. Asked them for his support a little
more.
I am scared but confident. I am happy, no doubt. And Yes I am where I
always wanted to be, the place what I know I belong to. Leave apart
whether or not I am True/RIGHT!
Not gonna spoil what I have now by desiring what I have not;
remembering that what I now have was once among the things I only
hoped for. Though not completely the way it should be.
He he, I read it somewhere “If you want to feel rich, just count the
things you have that money can't buy” !!!
Ok!
